I did not want to write another self-esteem piece, not another singleness piece, nor another piece about mental illness or race. I did not want to write about any of that. My intention was never to write at all. I live at the intersection of vulnerability, authenticity and prideful perfectionist self-preservation. Often times, I only want to share a story if it ends with “and then God rescued me, and now I am the perfect model of Christianity and you should be a Christian and trust God too because my life has been miraculously transformed.” This is not my story. At least not the whole of it.
Once in a while, I will make an Instagram or Facebook post, baring my heart. I always ended these posts in the same way: with a claim of a rescue, a redemption, a healing, that I wholly believed would happen but had not yet occurred. I would receive messages thanking me for my authenticity from Christians and non-Christians alike. But that was not my story. I would also sit in my room for days after, filled with anxiety and regret and cry because the truth was that I was still struggling. Every single time, I would ask God: “We’ve done this before; we’ve worked through this before, so WHY AM I LIKE THIS?” This is my story.
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Hey everyone! I present to you this week's Worship Music Monday album:)) I hope you guys enjoy!
Album: Inheritance, by Audrey Assad
Here is the album link: https://open.spotify.com/album/1SCFaSCDkVrIzHed69fWMH?si=UsQuwSh2RVCRZjdC21hmJw
Inheritance is a truly elegant and peaceful album that contains adaptations of older, traditional hymns as well as more recent songs. Assad’s ability to weave them together seamlessly is one thing that I think makes this album extra special. Whether you’re feeling relaxed or anxious, this album is great to listen to because of its steady rhythm and tone that helps to center the heart and mind on God. Maybe don’t play it when you’re driving though, it’s easy to fall into a peaceful sleep while listening to it.
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